Silent Killers

Silent Killers

I woke up at about 3:20 am feeling excruciating pain in my stomach and I knew that if i didn’t get to the toilet in the next three minutes, I was probably going to get my bed soiled with whatever would come out of my body.

I moved as fast as my legs could carry to the rest room where I emptied myself. I finished and not up to a minute later, my thoughts had raced from Bethlehem to Egypt and in that microsecond, I thought of how I may keep purging and pass out when I get to church or how there’s Corona virus everywhere and there’s Lassa fever and I don’t ever want to die because of any of these or how I made the mistake of drinking milk in the night after eating fried plantain (I’m grossly lactose intolerant) and how it could be an allergic reaction from which some have died.

You wouldn’t believe if I told you all these thoughts didn’t take up to 10 seconds. Would you? In the end, I started to get terribly scared. I was in the toilet while my family members were sleeping peacefully on their bed. I had to chide myself and begin to shey normal. see how fast that was yeah?

Sometimes two years ago, I started what I’d call thought tracking where when I began to think about stuff for a while, I’d try to trace my thoughts to where it began and many times, I’d notice how far my thoughts go in less than the twinkle of an eye. This just emphasizes our need to guard our hearts (which includes our thoughts) because out of it flows the issues of life.

While it is practically impossible to monitor intoto every single thought, we always know what thought imply our na express you dey go moment and we know what to do. We just don’t sometimes do it. However, remember what Paul told us to fix our thought on. “So keep your thoughts continually fixed on all that is authentic and real, honorable and admirable, beautiful and respectful, pure and holy, merciful and kind. And fasten your thoughts on every glorious work of God, praising him always.”

Those wandering thought will enter our minds every now and then and they will make us afraid, sad, envious and fell all those other negative emotions that we’re not supposed to feel. Dear, the word works. We’ll fight and win this battle of our thoughts with only the word of God. The word of God in our mouths and in our hearts. “Let the word of Christ live[a] in you richly, flooding you with all wisdom. Apply the Scriptures as you teach and instruct one another with the Psalms, and with festive praises,[b] and with prophetic songs given to you spontaneously by the Spirit, so sing to God with all your hearts!” is what Colossians 3:16 (TPT) says and there’s nothing truer than that.


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One thought on “Silent Killers

  1. My heart wandered here out of fear…but now I must say thank you, because this was a good read. I was suddenly reminded that info not have the spirit of fear but of sound mind.


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